Art & Tires

I Gallery Walked my way through Harrisburg with Johanna today, in yet another example of Harrisburg being far cooler than I thought it was.

To be honest, there was not that much art I thought was overly impressive, and we saw only a tiny fraction of what was offered, but there were some beautiful pieces and it was a new and interesting activity that neither one of us had ever done before. I’m not an art critic so I won’t even try to describe what we saw, but some of my favorites were at the Gallery at Walnut Place and the Center for Women’s Creative Expression. I was surprised that I enjoyed so much at the Women’s Center, I usually find art that tries to depict the suffering of poor womynkind and the like to be contrived and whiny, but there was some powerful photography. There was also some crap, but that’s to be expected. There was also some great stuff in the atrium at Strawberry Square by “emerging artists”. I wish I still had the list from that exhibit so I could mention specific artists by name, but, alas, I was short sighted and threw it out.

Anyway, I had a good time, it definitely helped move along my mission to learn the city by the end of the year, and made me aware of some spaces I didn’t previously know about. It was also very good to spend time with Johanna, and, as always, good to hang out with the illustrious Snow family.

The other highlight of my day was the acquisition and installation of four shiny new tires. I’m actually kind of proud about this.

Before I was allowed to get my driver’s license, my mother required that I be able to change a tire. After I demonstrated that I could indeed do this, though, I hadn’t had to use my apparently uncommon ability in several years, thanks to a combination of boyfriends and AAA. Part of my single life and quest for independence/self-sufficience has been a desire to handle crises — bit or tiny — on my own. While I’ve handled everything without the help of a boyfriend, I seem to have always had to enlist help from either my sister or my parents, which is less than satisfying. Other than rides from and to the tire place, though, I handled this one without assistance. I didn’t think I was going to be able to, simply because of strength issues, but I finally got the hubcap off, loosened the lugnuts, did the jacky thing with the car, got the lugnuts (lugnut is a funny word) all the way off, and then (and this was the hardest part) pried the tire off the axle or wheel or whatever the part that the tire’s actually lugnutted to is called, which it was completely rusted to. Then I put the spare tire on, but that was the easy part. The whole thing is pretty basic and rather silly, but I’m pleased and feel a little more like an independent woman. AND I now realize just how badly I needed new tires — the car is a dream to drive now, smooth and easy to steer!

Delphian Dreams & White Trash Angels

I had a dream on Thursday night that felt so real I wondered the next day if it had actually happened.

I dreamt that I was at work, working away as usual, when my supervisor called me over to her desk to show me a posting on our internal job page.

“Sweetie, I think they had you in mind when they wrote this,” she kept saying. And it seemed like they had. The job was my current employer’s equivalent of the job I had and loved during my last months in California. I have hoped for a similar opportunity since I’ve been home, and, thrilled to hear about this opening, I made a mental note to send in my resume as soon as I got home. If the dream continued beyond this point, I don’t remember it.

On Friday, though, I remembered the exchange with my supervisor and at first thought that it had happened the day before. After further thought, though, I realized that not only would it have been a very weird exchange to have, but, more importantly, I hadn’t worked the previous two days and so hadn’t spoken with anyone from work since Tuesday. I was disappointed but thought I’d take a moment to go ahead and check out the internal job postings for Harrisburg since I hadn’t in at least a couple of months.

There were two listings, one which had been open for nearly two months and I was clearly not qualified for, and one for “Local Operations Support” — which turned out to be exactly the job I’d dreamt about, posted the day before.

My chances of getting it are slim, but the sheer coincidence/magic of it has me hopeful, and only a bit weirded out. What made it seem even stranger was an experience I had just today (Saturday, that is — still today since I haven’t slept yet).

I was waiting to pull out of a gas station onto a very busy street early this evening when I saw in my side mirror a woman running toward my car, frantically waiving her arms. She was slightly weathered looking with a fake tan and too much hairspray, both of which were perfectly complemented by the floral tattoo on her upper arm. I couldn’t tell where she’d come from, but rolled down my window.

“You have a tire going flat! It’s this one, in the back here?” She pointed to the rear driver side tire, looking back at the driver of the car behind me for confirmation. “This one,” she restated, having received it. “You don’t want to go too far.”

Having just pumped gas while standing immediately next to the indicated tire, I figured it couldn’t be that bad and decided to start driving home anyway. There were no symptoms of a flat during the short drive and I carefully inspected both rear tires upon parking in front of my apartment building. I found only that the rear passenger side tire was slightly low, but not nearly low enough to inspire the kind of panic that had appeared in the woman’s voice — and it was the wrong side anyway. I shrugged it off and forgot about it in my rush to get ready to go out for the night.

On my way back home around 1:30 AM, though, while rounding a curve on 83, I felt a small pop, then began hearing a regular “thwack-thwack-thwack-thwack,” like playing cards in the spoke of a bicycle wheel but far more ominous. When I got home, sure enough, an enormous piece of metal had embedded itself in my rear driver side tire.

By the time I wake up tomorrow, wishing it were a dream, I’m sure the tire will be completely flat.

Yahoo! News – Feds Mull Charges in ABC News Probe

Feds Mull Charges in ABC News Probe

This raises some interesting questions. How much immunity does freedom of speech carry with it?

Ultimately I hope these reporters aren’t prosecuted, but what if it had been natural uranium and was actually dangerous? The official at the end of the article says that they didn’t stop it because they knew it wasn’t dangerous, which makes me hope the journalists try it again with a dangerous substance and see what happens — but how do we decide which news organizations are legit enough that they should be granted immunity if they’re caught?

The *Look*

My ex-boyfriend had this *look* that he used to give me, sometimes during moments of intimacy, sometimes over coffee, sometimes just in the midst of day-to-day life. This *look* of his would psychokinetically brush the hair back from my face, then tenderly slide its fingers down my cheek, lingering in the hollow where my jaw met my neck. It smiled into me, his blue eyes soft and happy. It was the look that lent credence to his words in the beginning of our relationship when I didn’t know if he was serious about us and the one that later held me at night even when it felt like we’d lost our fire. I forgot about it when we broke up, completely enough that I didn’t even think to feel betrayed by it.

I saw him last night, for the first time in nearly a year. It was strange to see him, and a little awkward, but good. After the initial awkwardness we talked easily and laughed often, but towards the end of the evening, he commented that I’d given him some strange looks, surprised and quizzical, at odd moments. I’m not sure, since he didn’t point them out as they happened, but I think these may have been in response to seeing a certain *look* from him. It did surprise me, quite a bit. That was the “I love you” look, and while we are good friends these days, I know that’s not what was behind it last night. Seeing it shook something inside me, made unsteady a foundation that had been built years ago, the basis of our relationship and, therefore, how view our relationship now. I’m not sure how I should now interpret that look, but clearly my previous interpretation was wrong — and what does that mean about my ability to read people in general?

It will be months and months before I see him again, so I’m not planning on wasting a lot of brain power thinking about it, but it’s there, rolling around in my head, wondering…

Wired News: Woz OK’s Apple I Resurrection

Apple I Resurrection

“Apple’s co-founder Steve Wozniak has given his blessing to the production of a replica of the Apple I — the legendary machine that launched Apple.”

I knew it would start sooner or later. The real question is how long it’ll be before the IBM XT my dad has in the basement will be worth something again.

Accepting Defeat

I have given up.

For the past 5 weeks (exactly), I have been trying the Atkins diet, hoping to lose approximately 12.5 pounds. I lost 5 pounds in the first 2 weeks and was thrilled at how easy it was, despite the stringent diet restrictions. I was a little unsure as to my ability to maintain the Atkins lifestyle for a prolonged period and knew I’d probably gain the weight back if I ever resumed my normal eating habits, but I was okay for the time being. After the 3rd week, I plateaued. I knew this was likely, so I didn’t panic, and redoubled my efforts to stick to the plan. When I weighed myself yesterday, I found that I’d actually gained back all but 1 pound.

I have not been perfect about it, and I have been drinking wine with some regularity, but after much consideration, I have determined that even if adhering to the plan more carefully would result in further weight loss, it wouldn’t be worth the sacrifice. So I had a beer with my dinner and cheesecake for dessert and am happy and satisfied far more deeply than a carb-free meal could ever have me.

Now I just have to start exercising…